He knows how much some of us looked up to him, therefore, I do not feel bad for him.
Nonetheless, I just want my friend back, but since that doesn't seem like it will happen, fuck him.

And that is another reason why I am so pissed off about this. I did a pretty big lie, similar to this, about half a year ago in the summer on Gaia, the reason I quit Gaia, the reason I am so pissed off, the reason I am sexually and mentally confused, is all because of this lie that escalated too fast.