When I die

[ccgamer]

When I die, I want to be young.
It just occured to me, that I don't want to grow old.
If I cannot be forever young, i'd rather be dead.
That sounds so selfish, and twisted.
But I feel like I have no reason to live so long.
I barely have a reason to live young, but atleast I can put some fun in this.

[Frostbite]

You can join in with me and my friend's funeral!
It's really innovative. Everyone dresses in bright colors and comes to the funeral venue, you give a good-bye speech, lie down in the coffin, and take a painless, lethal injection.

It's fun! and nobody's as sad that you're dead because they know you went willingly and happily. We will both be each other's lethal-injection-bearers.

BTW: We're doing this when I turn 35 and she's 37

[ccgamer]

If this is seriousness. Ill gladly join you
Wait. How old are you now?
35 sounds like a nice age to go.
Your young enough to die young,
But old enough to have lived.

[Frostbite]

I'm 17
And yeah, we figured 40 might be pushing it. haha XD

[ccgamer]

I'm 17
And yeah, we figured 40 might be pushing it. haha XD

then ill be thirty three or four... lawl I'm with you. For sure. No mind change. Intended.

Ill wear green and blue, and look beautiful.
. . . . I always wanted to be beautiful when I died.

[Drakonid]

I hope you die in a terrible accident and get terribly disfigured.
Nothing personal, I'd just love the irony.
okay, that may be a bit harsh, I apologize.

[ccgamer]

Its alright. Death is death. If I die a bloody mangled mess, that's alright too.

[Frostbite]

then ill be thirty three or four... lawl I'm with you. For sure. No mind change. Intended.

Ill wear green and blue, and look beautiful.
. . . . I always wanted to be beautiful when I died.

Yay!! Now we have a third!!! And I'm wearing blue and white, and she's wearing coral and yellow and you're wearing blue and green! Yay brightness! We will all be gawjuss! [She's going to Aveda beauty school... but it's funny, I TUTOR her..? I've never been to a beauty school. I just like doing makeup. haha]

[Supra]

This was weird to read. I disagree with all of it. And you just asked her if she would kill herself with you. That's gotta count as some form of murder.

[ccgamer]

Nah, by then it will be legal.
Supra, you disagree?
Do explain
...
I'm rather excited for the planned funeral.
Rather odd.
But I like the feeling of knowing.

[XiRaX]

When i die, fuck it I wana go to hell.
'Cause i'm a piece of shit it ain't hard to fuckin' tell.
It don't make sense going to heaven with the goodie-goodies.
Fuck that shit, i like black Timbs and black hoodies.
All my life i've been considered as the worst.
Lying to my mother, even stealin' out her purse.
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my momma wish she had a fuckin' abortion.

[Supra]

It should not be a planned funeral. That's weird. Who wants to die at age 35 you have a life to live. Me I know when im 60 ill be toking up chillin.

[ccgamer]

Because I want the world to see me when I'm dead, not as old and frail, but strong, young, and ready to see what's on the other side of the gate.
I want the last image of me to be a perfect on, a pale lifeless complexion, with rose red dabbled on my cheeks, silky sheer red lips outlined by the white of my skin, eyes closed and wrinkleless, satin and silk coating my body, and my dirty blonde hair carefully place to frame my face.
I want to die strong,young, and beautiful; something I fear I've never been.

[CL0V3R]

You guys will feel that way until you get closer to that age. Trust me I felt the same way when I was younger.
Also lethal injection isn't painless.

[ccgamer]

You're saying you want attention when you die, am I right?

Nah, I'm saying I want to be perfect when I die.


Clo3y~ I feel this way for a reaso n though.

[CL0V3R]

Nah, I'm saying I want to be perfect when I die.


Clo3y~ I feel this way for a reaso n though.

So does everyone who wants to kill themselves to stay young.
Lol
Really when you start getting older age sort of doesn't matter as much as it does when you're young.

[ccgamer]

I have my reasons; and I'm sticking to it, unless I have a reason to change my mind.
End of.

[CL0V3R]

I have my reasons; and I'm sticking to it, unless I have a reason to change my mind.
End of.

You'll end up changing it more than likely, or at least hopefully.

[ccgamer]

You'll end up changing it more than likely, or at least hopefully.

Why?
I won't be missed hun. I promise you that.

[CL0V3R]

Why?
I won't be missed hun. I promise you that.

You're crazy if you think that's true. =P

[Raivu]

It's only because you've had a shit childhood.
There are so many places you haven't seen.
People you haven't met.
Things you haven't done.

Fill your canvas, don't throw it all away with one little pencil dot in the bottom corner.
It's a waste of paper.

[ccgamer]

Clo3y~ I'm insane, because trust me, I believe it with all my heart.
Raivu~ you make it absolutely impossible to be stubborn. . . .

[CL0V3R]

Clo3y~ I'm insane, because trust me, I believe it with all my heart.
Raivu~ you make it absolutely impossible to be stubborn. . . .

I'd care. >=[

[Raivu]

You're talking to 30 people on this site daily who'd care if you were gone.
I don't even know you and I'd care.
And the fact that there are up to 30 complete strangers that would miss you is far more incredible than what some people have to say.
And you think you wouldn't be throwing anything away?
You think nobody would miss you or care?

[ccgamer]

You're talking to 30 people on this site daily who'd care if you were gone.
I don't even know you and I'd care.
And the fact that there are up to 30 complete strangers that would miss you is far more incredible than what some people have to say.
And you think you wouldn't be throwing anything away?
You think nobody would miss you or care?

I'm throwing away a piece of paper with scribbles and torn edges. No masterpiece can be made from such.
I see myself, as one person, and I'm completely replaceable.

Clo3y ~ I know people who are just as fun as me, you should meet them

[CL0V3R]

I'm throwing away a piece of paper with scribbles and torn edges. No masterpiece can be made from such.
I see myself, as one person, and I'm completely replaceable.

Clo3y ~ I know people who are just as fun as me, you should meet them

You know what's funny and I'm being serious here. I've made my best art pieces on the backs of school papers covered in doodles.
Yes but they aren't you. Each person is different than another person at least in some way. I like you.

Suicide is really hard thing to go through, I'm sure all your friends us included would be extremely upset.

[ccgamer]

You know what's funny and I'm being serious here. I've made my best art pieces on the backs of school papers covered in doodles.
Yes but they aren't you. Each person is different than another person at least in some way. I like you.

Suicide is really hard thing to go through, I'm sure all your friends us included would be extremely upset.

They're better then me
Its not suicide!
Its..
Willingness to give up on life, and die peacefully.

[CL0V3R]

They're better then me
Its not suicide!
Its..
Willingness to give up on life, and die peacefully.

You can't prove that.
How much someone likes another person is based on their own personal feelings, so you can't say I'd like them any better than you.
Also if you're actively killing yourself that'd be suicide.
Life does get better.

[Valium]

When i die, fuck it I wana go to hell.
'Cause i'm a piece of shit it ain't hard to fuckin' tell.
It don't make sense going to heaven with the goodie-goodies.
Fuck that shit, i like black Timbs and black hoodies.
All my life i've been considered as the worst.
Lying to my mother, even stealin' out her purse.
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my momma wish she had a fuckin' abortion.

Lmao!!! that's what I thought was coming. I didnt think he was serious. lmaooo!

[C0FFINCASE]

When I die....and they lay me to rest
Gonna go to the place that's the best
When I lay me down to die
Goin' up to the spirit in the sky
Goin' up to the spirit in the sky
That's where I'm gonna go when I die
When I die and they lay me to rest
Gonna go to the place that's the best

Prepare yourself you know it's a must
Gotta have a friend in Jesus
So you know that when you die
He's gonna recommend you
To the spirit in the sky
Gonna recommend you
To the spirit in the sky
That's where you're gonna go when you die
When you die and they lay you to rest
You're gonna go to the place that's the best

Never been a sinner I never sinned
I got a friend in Jesus
So you know that when I die
He's gonna set me up with
The spirit in the sky
Oh set me up with the spirit in the sky
That's where I'm gonna go when I die
When I die and they lay me to rest
I'm gonna go to the place that's the best
Go to the place that's the best


Seriously though if the faith I ascribe to is correct I'm going to hell. I'm the definition of apathetic.

@cc: come on now, being old is fun. Like I'm old to every teenager on the planet and they think its cool that I can buy booze and drive and yada yada. But I think like 60-90 years olds are cool. I wish to god I could sit around be a complete ass, yell curse words and racial slurs and not get shit over it. I wish hot busty women had to come take care of me and give me baths. Plus I think having long gray hair would be wicked cool, when I'm old I'll be so good at cosplaying Spehiroth.
Now buck up and stop listening to The Who, who by the way grew old and really enjoyed it because age is a state of mind my friend and you never actually have to grow up if you don't want to. Case and points being Johny Depp and if you ignore the molestation things Micheal Jackson(hey you guys know he died? omg! it was like on the news for seven months!).
Also we're going to borrow from South Park here and point out now matter how shitty things are right now, the fact you feel that bad means you have the capacity to feel that good and have felt it before and eventually will feel it again.

[ccgamer]

You can't prove that.
How much someone likes another person is based on their own personal feelings, so you can't say I'd like them any better than you.
Also if you're actively killing yourself that'd be suicide.
Life does get better.

Do say when. I await the day when I wake up and think "yay, life"
XDD

Coffin~ i ll see you in hell buddy.

[CL0V3R]

We're pretty much all going to hell if there is one coffin, one way or another.

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Do say when. I await the day when I wake up and think "yay, life"
XDD

When you move out, don't live with your parents, and get a better outlook on the world in general.
Things get better. I know from personal experience, and even when things suck it's not the end of the world.

[Raivu]

I'm throwing away a piece of paper with scribbles and torn edges. No masterpiece can be made from such.
I see myself, as one person, and I'm completely replaceable.

Clo3y ~ I know people who are just as fun as me, you should meet them

Look at me again and tell me you can't make something out of trash.

[ccgamer]

We're pretty much all going to hell if there is one coffin, one way or another.

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When you move out, don't live with your parents, and get a better outlook on the world in general.
Things get better. I know from personal experience, and even when things suck it's not the end of the world.

I already made a deal with my friends, ill live past then.
But I just, I don't have a reason to live long.
I won't marry, no kids..
Until I have a reason to live that long I don't really want to.


Raivu~ you're impossible -.-;

[Raivu]

I already made a deal with my friends, ill live past then.
But I just, I don't have a reason to live long.
I won't marry, no kids..
Until I have a reason to live that long I don't really want to.


Raivu~ you're impossible -.-;

Stop looking at my logic as a challenge, and learn to accept it.
I'm giving you every reason and confidence you have to live.
You're just too stubborn to see past it.
You're not looking at it as inspiration. You see it as a challenge.
Proving your point when I"ve already one.

Live to 100. Live everywhere, see everything, explore, and get the fuck out of your parents house.
You're too young to know what you really want anyway <3
Love youuuu

[C0FFINCASE]

Hold up, replaceable? No one is replaceable. I say this a lot but is the truth. This reality is the condensing of all possibility into this instance. Do you know what that means? You are the result of every possible existence of this world. The odd of things being the way they are right this second, the fact you en exist are astronomically against you or me existing at all. The math is staggering. The concepts need to fully comprehend are still beyond 99.9% of all of the world. Your existence is miraculous and so are you. Everyone is a miracle, and that's speaking scientifically. You throw God and magically creation shit in there and it gets even more amazing.
Fundamentally you can do and make situations better if you persist and try. Death by way of choice is by far the most selfish and inconsiderate thing you can ever do. Laying down your life for something is wonderful but throwing it away is unacceptable. Its not yours', its ours'. See you don't experience you or the impact you have on those around you. We, the rest of the people that meet you do. An you willing removing yourself from us is selfish. we live not only for ourselves, but for others and your role in being here and talking to us and interacting with us is vastly important. The events you set into motion for each of us are unknown and immensely wonderful and exciting and I for one can't have you running off and throwing your life away. The people here typing away, scared by your comments are proof of what you mean to the world and how irreplaceable you are. Particularly because we've stood where you are and wondered "when is my time? when do things go my way? Why does this life suck?", it does get better but only if you want it to. Reality is possibility, life is possibility, so long as we live, we can do any thing and make our lives any thing. Its not easy and its not always fun or awesome but its always worth it. 1 to 1000000 happens a ton more than they'd want you to believe, dear. If you stand up and live for today as well as tomorrow you can go far.