Motivation

What drives you to exercise? I have a gym membership that I use maybe once a month, if that. Is it just forcing yourself?

Self hate

Seeing results and numbers go up. I like feeling sore. And I like seeing my body move when I work out, it's weird. Idk, when I do clean and Jerks and shit, it's awesome.
I go everyday. It feels good.

Nevik wrote:

Self hate

Same.
It's not really good for my mind though.
I tend to put myself down quite harshly.

ITs like a cycle, hate not going , promise to go, day comes and can't do it. Ive heard its easier after about a week but its difficult to break the cycle.

Compete with your buddy. That's what I'm doing.
Say that you'll transform your body better then him in a 3month period.

Something like this ^_^ ?