Complications
I'm back, for now, if only to complain. I'm trying figure out how admitting something to girlfriend, something that doesn't even happen anymore, can make her want to leave. To not know whether she can do "this" anymore. So...honesty isn't the best policy? And apparently, despite how fucking hard I've tried to make this work and am currently trying to make her want me, I don't love her that much. So what's next? Giving up? I don't want her to leave. I want to be with her. I just don't get it. When I ask what I'm doing wrong, she tells me nothing. Obviously, there is something. I'm sorry I can't be perfect and be everything you want me to be. I honestly don't fucking care right now. I'm the one who has to suffer for being honest. Fucking.....ugh. I hate this feeling.
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