That you are that one person in your township/city that is unique/special? That you are the one person out of thousands that has a reason for life other than working day in and day out?

I get that feeling all the time.

Another feeling that I get too often is that what I am searching for may never be found. I don't know what that something is, but when I find it, I would know what it is.

These feelings confuse me on a day to day basis.